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Society

2009-01-09T21:00:00.002+07:00

It's a mistery to me
we have a greed
with which we have agreed

You think you have to want
more than you need
until you have it all you won't be free

society, you're a crazy breed
I hope you're not lonely without me

When you want more than you have
you think you need
and when you think more than you want
your thoughts begin to bleed

I think I need to find a bigger place
'cos when you have more than you think
you need more space

society, you're a crazy breed
I hope you're not lonely without me
society, crazy and deep
I hope you're not lonely without me

there's those thinking more or less less is more
but if less is more how you're keeping score?
Means for every point you make
your level drops
kinda like its starting from the top
you can't do that...

society, you're a crazy breed
I hope you're not lonely without me
society, crazy and deep
I hope you're not lonely without me

society, have mercy on me
I hope you're not angry if I disagree
society, crazy and deep
I hope you're not lonely without me...

untitled

2008-12-19T20:32:00.001+07:00

To Look is to See Somehow it seems,
When I do look,
I often do not see
The clouds, the birds, the trees, the sun,
All that is right in front of me
And soon it seems I look to love
And her star struck eyes
gaze into mine.
But I do not see that look of love
that truly is divine.
So whether my eyes are open,
Or they are tightly closed in sleep
I long to see that which I look at
That which pangs me deep.
So eyes of mine help me to see
and not just look as an act of choice.
For once I see what's inside of me,
only then can I find my inner voice.

Questions for My Grandfather

2008-11-22T03:14:00.000+07:00

The snow settled on the old pine trees like an x-ray,
searching out some kind of cancer,
and the best that I can do is wonder
just exactly what you'd say about it.

I was seven--almost eight, bouncing on a knee,
and if I'd known anything of war
not played with flimsy, dull-edged cards
around an old extendable kitchen table
every two Sundays, I might have asked.

I'll bet it changes people, war, I mean.
Lead-tipped and trigger-operated
death, strafing all those mothers' sons,
mortars like small-town fireworks,
and everything I've read about.

It's cold here, and my footprints explode
into this inch or two, and then disappear,
lost with each gust of wind. And if I could,
I'd ask how a kid no older than me
can get sent to hell and live to talk about it.

why part 2

2008-09-20T05:30:00.000+07:00

When the true value of our consciousness is unlimited beyond the known
infinity, how can we be expected to realize this falseness known as modern
society, and cooperate with such ludicrous designs?

The exponential growth rate of ignorance on planet Earth has led
man-kind down a path of de-evolution and eventually will lead to the physical
demise of most of our species. It seems as though ignorance and technology spread at virtually the same rate, while knowledge of the greater good travels at a
crawling pace all its own. Man-kind wields the powers of technology without
earning and recognizing the responsibilities of such powerful tools. Earth
continues to be raped on a daily basis while man-kind’s justification for this
is only a candy coating whose center is only made of laziness and greed. These
daily atrocities are only superseded by each following day. As more
positions of power are acquired by those who live solely on their own superficial
desires, the spread of true knowledge is pushed back to a point where most are
blind to the existence of the most important questions.

If the world as we know it ends by a direct misuse of our vast
technology or happens to end by an indirect effect of man’s causing, it doesn’t
matter because the most concrete fact is that humanity will lead to its own
destruction. Why can’t humanity see that their desire to want should not
supersede the need for a peaceful existence? The use of free will in such a selfish
manner will earn most of humanity a direct trip into nothingness.

Its not that I have the power to see the future, but the fact that I
feel this growing tragedy’s conclusion drawing nearer with every fiber of my
being. As long as humanity is blind to the fact that they should just be happy
to exist, the farther they will travel down the path of nothingness. So what
is to be done to prevent this horrible tragedy? Unfortunately, there may be
nothing left to do but sit back and observe the exponential rate of
selfishness humanity is perpetuating. I can honestly assure you that if I could help
prevent this course of events, I would devote my entire being into opening
man-kind’s eyes. Instead, I continue to ponder why vast reach and potential are
humanities greatest assets, yet ignorance is the most prevalent part of
society.

Born to War

2008-09-14T01:54:00.000+07:00

What if you were born in war
and lived your whole life
and then on day,
the war ends without explanation.
How would you know how to live?

Fighter jets fly over head
Announcing your birth as
the sun gleams
bouncing off the white marble columns
Of the hospital where you were born.

Babies crying, so many babies
each needed to grow
To fight.
To manufacture,
To reproduce,
To die.
Babies cry for milk and comfort
That’s what we all need—
Comfort.

Buzzing bullets sound like insects.
Annoying but normal
Almost.
Tapping, tapping strange tapping.
Gunfire pops off on a far off hill
Announcing the arrival of
open season on the unseen enemy.
It is cold in the morning
when you fly.
Today, I live 19 years
On this earth
In this country
In this war
bound with straps
To a small metal seat.
With the adrenaline of battle as food
as trumpets sound off in the distance.
Death would be your friend,
For only an honorable life
Is ended in battle.

Without warning the radio calls,
“no flight today!”
Or tomorrow. Or anymore.

Shock and confusion
Lost in your own life.
Dancing fools in the streets
Celebrate the end of the war.
Why?
How could this have happened?

The world has changed today.
What is this thing called

Peace?

Peace
A long forgotten myth
A memory of other peoples
Long forgotten

Babes born into infant peace are hungry
Not for freedom
But for dreams
Not for power,
But for the knowledge of a future.

How can they dream
of world without war
when peace is so costly?

No work for many.
Knowledge wasted,
Factories once flourishing
now failing.
Only poverty is in abundance.
What are we to do?

Maybe those who
began the war are dead now
And with them the reasons
why we fought are gone too.
Maybe they will be
celebrated as heroes.
Maybe not.

What if you were born in war
and lived your whole life
and then on day,
the war ends without explanation.
How would you know how to live?

why part 1

2008-09-02T22:41:00.002+07:00

Do you know what I find most amusing? When the older ones (adult humans)
tell you to go to college and become more or do more with your education
and you think to yourself "why, I already know that stuff!" And later
when they are still thinking that we are stupid for not getting a
degree, they seem astonished when you figure out a computer program in 2
seconds when it has taken them years to develop. Peanuts.

One reason why we are so impatient is because we are not used to
waiting. Things normally happen in a blink to us. That is also a reason
why we can't sit still in school because learning happens in a
nanosecond (or faster) and is normally infused by the comfortable
learning, there is a lot of ways to learn and cookie cutters don't work
for everyone.

Sometimes I get upset that I have to physically speak. I have realized
that it is because I am used to speaking through my mind and not my
mouth.

believe in yours..

2008-07-23T04:27:00.001+07:00

Part of the reason the world is so screwed up right now is just because of
fear. People are so scared of what they don't understand, and that causes them
to shut themselves down in an effort to not feel that fear. Unfortunately,
that is only makings worse. By separating your hearts from the ones around you,
you're only causing yourself to live a life filled with numbness instead of
joy. Your joy, and mine, is the catalyst for.. well.. for the changes that are
coming to be positive. You all must understand that there is Nothing to fear in
the coming changes. What's happening in the world is for the best, though it
may not seem like it now. All I can do to alleviate your fears is ask you to
trust one who sees. I am life, and you are life-we are all one being.
One other thing-whatever your believe in terms of spirituality is ok, because
it's all one big truth that can only be comprehended by the heart. But you
have to realize that your truth is no better than someone else's-because they
are all one. It's so little, yet it's so much. We can only understand what we are ready
to understand.

friendship

2008-07-21T02:57:00.003+07:00

but if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything.

Mohammed Ali

nice quoted..

trust your self

2008-07-20T04:04:00.000+07:00

Serenity in life cannot be,
Roaming flames of inadequacy.
The question waits of when and where,
The purity of existence will appear.

Psychological beauty of heart,
Piercing the mind as an emotion-charged dart.
Unique and magnificently immense,
Additionally acute and intense.

To whom shall the light shine?

Encapsulated in this advice,
Reigns the animation of streaming life.
Seize this as your sign,
Blatantly losing your apprehensive mind.
And ultimately invoking this one final part,
Trust yourself and live from the heart.

ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE!!!

2008-06-21T08:55:00.001+07:00

I do not know if this is wisdom, but I feel this is what everyone in college needs to do, including me.

When you look at someone, who is not as smart as you, fatter than you, not as pretty as you (well, as you may think!). There is an automatic judge inside of you saying you are the superior one. We must all destroy this inner judge, and allow the judge to fall and let all the glory of your being come out. The judge is blocking everything, and instead of love, it is Taunting, Bullying, Harassing, taking place, Sometimes leading to suicide, depression. This is going on everywhere, In every school in Indonesia. If we are to stop wars, we have to stop them at the root. Which is judging.

I desperately tried to explain this in a film, which miserably did not work at all! I lacked the self confidence to show it in my school, You can not let this happen to you. I am now in a state of deep depression. Do not allow fear to stop you from your dreams (I have to listen to that too, I have yet to follow it).

In the words of John Lennon

ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE!!!

Let us make each other believe it.

time part 2

2008-06-19T02:54:00.000+07:00

Time is all you need I say, to let your blues wash away.
Hopes what makes a brighter day & strength will
Help you on your way.

The beauty of life is all around but it’s up to you if it’s to
Be found.

Dreams are wonderful & full of surprise. The world that waits
When you close your eyes.
Past failures disappear, new horizons are drawing near.
For time is only measured by years.

Not good times, bad times, laughter & tears.
Let time come and wash over your fears.
Melt away the clouds and dry the tears.

Embrace each new day with excitement and joy.
Follow your star and push yourself far.

Never let anyone make you feel small, push their negativity
On your soul & try to destroy the faith you have.
Open your heart to all around, be true to yourself & your
Loved ones.

Let the advice you give be sound.
Look for the good in life and don’t accept the bad.
Never let yourself be overcome by jealously and you
Will never be sad.

So instead of saying I can’t tell yourself I can and remember
Wise words.
Time waits for no man

TIME part 1

2008-06-13T07:54:00.001+07:00

TIME is all

TIME is nothing

everything illness can be cured over TIME

TIME is of the essence

TIME is an illusion

everything comes together in TIME

can I save her in TIME

TIME to face the facts

TIME is what you make of it and in TIME all come around in full circle.

So the TIME is now not tomorrow, not yesterday

theirs no TIME like the present time so don't live in the past TIME

If we work together the world will stand the test of TIME

breaking the silence

2008-05-27T01:04:00.002+07:00

This silence fills an emptiness, but I don't feel full. In fact, alone in this body, alone in my home. I worship this mosque, day by day I carry this weight. It's impossible to lose myself, when buried in my own hate. I can surface with a force of determination, motivation, and possibly a kind of divination within. Why is understanding or mastering the self such a mission, or a choice of discipline?
I carry within me emotions that I cannot control, a struggle between the mind, body, and soul. Through prayer to god, I rid myself of these burdens that scrape the surface of my head. They pass by like a train of memories floating in the wind, dancing around in circles, fading away like the dead. Day by day together, me, myself and I, the spirit, body, and ego. The man, God - old man new, new man dies. A rebirth has come to pass, and the spirit survives. No more lives, just an open door to the other side.

do you feel it?

2008-05-02T03:57:00.000+07:00

It is coming for us.

I am watching it. It really, truly is, and I'm half-crazy with hope

This is better than fantasy. This is reality.

As it comes, I finally find it.

What I've been looking for was all of you... And you have

No idea

How excited I am you're here. I am... No longer a number.

I am no longer a number?

I - I am no longer a number!

I am bright!

I shine!

You as well, isn't it crazy?!

And I feel it, this wave of dazzling light, and we are all at its brink!

All those days, those months, those years, when we did not know.

When we thought, 'I am truly not like them.'

When we longed to be accepted until our chests ached with pain.

They will not be wasted.

I will not be forgotten when I die.

I WILL NOT LET IT HAPPEN!

This is my greatest belief. None of us will.

We will not allow it to happen.

They cannot stop us.

Someday, maybe this will all end, be a part of history.

They might stop coming. Things change.

But its here now - we will be the first.

I don't want to lead, I don't know how - but I shall help.

I still feel it, this insecurity.

Maybe you - you think I'm insane now?

But I know- heart of hearts and all that - you understand.

I have been searching for almost seventeen years.

That's a long time for a mortal.

I found you.

I found you!

Thank you so much for being here.

There is so much for me to do now.

im not fears

2008-04-14T07:44:00.000+07:00

I have just now begun to search and open my eyes to the writings of others..
I don't want to look But I do.
I am finding answers that lead to more questions ...It only lets me see
things I already am aware of and have not found a way to express... For that
I am grateful. The parallels to my own life and every aspect of it in the
smallest minute details from my own name and the name of my children.
Uncanny even my chosen profession and course of study.
>From the color of my aura to the recognition by others of my human Angel
self... My spiritual beliefs and all that I am...
yes. things are changing and yes there is a great war ...
It is already here...
It has begun...
If any have listened they know that it heralded loudly but few heard the
call..
I have no fear of it
As you should not fear also...
It is for the best and all will be revealed..
How many will be enlightened?
In the end.. All,
Even I will understand my purpose.

A Winter Night

2008-04-02T00:25:00.000+07:00

A crisp winter night,
The moon shines above,
So Full,
So Bright,
The sky glistens,
Glittering little tear drops,
I look up at the night sky,
tears fall,
I fly
I greet the moon,
I greet the stars,
I greet Venus, Mercury and Mars,
Then I look down and see,
the physical part
looking straight up at me.
I see her eyes,
So full of sadness
So full of tears,
Like those of animals,
especially deer...

* * *
I cannot go yet,
There is still work to be done,
I must help her, help everyone,
But Soon, one day,
I will be Free!
For now I must reside,
I must protect,
Until she is ready

Hello world !! this is my own blog

2008-03-06T21:54:00.000+07:00

You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life.